As my journey into motherhood continues to evolve with twists, turns and discoveries; so does my path into rediscovering myself.
We struggled for years to try to have another child. Who would have thought that years of IVF with constant monthly let downs, hundreds of visits to the doctors, lots of daily injections, hope and faith lost, that it would finally happen?
Fertility issues are a horrible battle. If I heard one more time.
“Relax it will happen”,
I would have punched someone in the face.
Relax? Every evening was not “would you like red or white wine”? It was.
“Where and what side of your bum did we inject the needle last night”.
The financial burden of IVF and the constant disappointment is enough to make you go crazy. Then there’s the worry of injecting unnatural liquids into your body daily. What about the potential side effects that could appear down the road? It is unsettling.
Relationships get tested and romance is gone. Wanting something so bad and to be told I should come to the realization it may never happen??? It was something I could not accept.
My older son always wanted a sibling. As he got older he would say
“it’s not fun being the only child”.
Hey, whats little more pressure? How could we explain to our happy 8-year old, who, at this point has received anything and everything he asked (within reason) that this was one thing we would not be able to give to him?
After another call from the IVF tech saying there were two embryos inserted BUT your levels don’t look like it will take…
That was the final straw for us.
This was going to be my last effort. I cut caffeine, red meat, carbs; basically all the fun, good stuff was replaced with a super organic, very unappetizing fare. We had gone all organic/natural; protein shakes with kale, dandelion greens, lemon grass and plenty of natural vitamins twice a day, grass and leaves for lunch and protein, quinoa, blah blah blah for dinner. Not exactly the meatball sub or hot fudge sundae my hormone riddled body craved.
We turned to Chinese medicine. It is pretty amazing. I was treated weekly by an acupuncturist which I believe was a huge factor in our success. After one month of eating all organic and natural, along with the treatments, was the first time we ever I had several eggs that were great enough to freeze and two beauties to insert.
FINALLY, the call came.
“You are PREGNANT and your levels look great”
I actually began to feel that pregnancy glow.
Then at five and half months
BUMP!- the tiniest parking-lot fender bender.
The glow was over…
My water broke.
To Be Continued